Not so blissfully happy anymore...

Tonight we had dress rehearsal, and that went absolutly horrible!
But thats okay, if you have a perfect dress rehearsal, the show is horrible, and vice versa...
So the show shouldn't be to bad...

My feet are killing me, and we only did the whole show once!
Tommorw we do it twice!
I have six different dances to do...haha fun stuff...

Argh! And I'm really pissed at my friend's older brother right now...
But I won't go into that...

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Its one o'clock in the morning...

But I plan on finishing three papers before I go to bed...

Will this happen? Probubly not...

Complete and blissfully happy!

I only have four more papers, and then I'm done being a freshman forever!
Tenth grade seems so much older..haha

Ah! I'll be sixteen! Thats sooo old!
Even though you guys are older...still...

Angel, I have a huge ballet production, coming up this weekend...
If you lived closer, I'd invite you...
Haha, I'd invite Stephen to, but he's studying, and wouldn't get as much out of it...

<3 <3 <3

No more Rain...

Well, its summer time at last...
Maybe I'll change my name to sun...
Haha...

Whenever it stops raining, I feel like I've left...
Not that I have anything against the sun...
No no, don't get me wrong, sun is good, just I am better...

Ugh...

Will I ever be old enough be left home on my parents buisness trips?
Maybe its because I don't have the courage to stand up to them, and put my foot down.
They wouldn't listen anyhow...

From Friday to Sunday we were in Washington...

Summer is coming up!
I can't wait, relatives will be here for maybe a week, and then total freedom!

Creepy...

My mother left to go the grocery store, and actually left me home by myself!
I was so proud...haha

While she was gone, this guy pulled up right in front of my house...
And got out of the car, and started staring at my house, and the neighbors house.
He looked to be about 27, and had no intention of leaving.

So, to scare him away, I went out there, to go to the mail box, which is only about
six feet away from my house. I walked out the door, and completely ignored him, pretending I hadn't even noticed him.

He got back in the car, but out of the corner of my eye, I saw him watch me go all the way
to the mailbox. I got the mail, and headed back to the house. He just sat there, as bold as could be, staring at me.

I even looked right at him, pretending to notice him for the first time, but he stared right back at me, and didn't even look away. I walked back to the house, as casual as I could, without running and screaming, and closed the door behind me.

Then I ran and locked all the doors. I saw him sit there, staring at my house for like two more minutes and then drive away.

Creeper!

Haha...

This is the best shirt ever! I want one...

I absolutly love it, when its raining, and I'm walking in a store, or any randem place, and I hear people tell eachother how much they love the rain...

It makes me laugh...

Shush

Cover your ears, I'm about to scream...

Why does everyone have to tell me to be quiet?
Ah! They might as well cut out my vocal cords, and then they would be happy.
Everyone thinks I talk to much...

It horrible!

Stephen!

You must have good taste, cause everytime I go to join a blog, your already there...
Not just sometimes, EVERYTIME!

I swear I'm not stalking you...haha...
Though it probubly seems like it, I just share your taste in blogs, or you share mine...something like that...

Hurt...

Ugh...so yesturday, on Sunday, I went to this party with my parents...
It was mainly for the parents, but some brought their children...
The little kids played outside, and the older kids, (teenagers) where downstairs.

There were alot of guys, and me...
Lovely, so I just sat there, listening to them being perverted, and rolling my eyes. Ugh...

There was this small coin on the floor, so I picked it up, and threw it towards the couch,
and it accidentally hit one of the guys! I was really embarrassed, and said I was sorry, but his friend picked up this other metal thing, that was slightly larger,and threw it at me! It really hurt to!

Ugh, so I guess they thought they were flirting or something, but all day, if they had something, they'd just throw it at me..I was shocked...

This one guy kept getting in my face about every little thing, he would literally be like a centimeter from my face...Creepy!

I also got hit with a rular, once accidentally, second time on purpose, and slapped with a belt, that happened to be laying around, on the floor! Gosh!

What is the matter with boys, do they feel some urge to pick on the smallest person in the room...?
Not only was I the only girl, but the smallest, the shortest, the prettiest..haha just kidding...

Some other guy wanted my chair, and when I wouldn't give it to him, he picked me up, and lifted me off it, setting me on the floor, he was bold enough to take my chair...

I used to know them all really well, and be friends with them, but I haven't seen them in, what? Two years? They were all best friends, so that left me out, anyway...

Note to self: Never hang out with the kids, go talk with the parents about the money draw back, and relationships...

Make up your mind!

Some people say that 'absense makes the heart grow fonder.'..

Yet others say, 'Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away, means forgetting'...

This doesn't apply to me...but when you love someone and they go away...which of these is true?

Ah! Talk about embarrassing!

I was argueing with my dad, and I can't argue, so I ended up in tears...as always...ugh...
And all the sudden my math tutor came up, and I had forgotten she was coming!
It was so awkward, argh...my face was all blotchy, and she kept giving me weird looks...

Love it!

This is absolutly 100% amazing!!!!
This guy has talent...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAwR6w2TgxY&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fspeactra%2Eblogspot%2Ecom%2F&feature=player_embedded

Just stop, and go away!

Ugh...I hate the guys in my neighborhood...
I walk down the street, and it bugs me when they call out to me,
or yell there number at my back...
Gosh..I'm not desperate...but thanks anyway..
Or I'm walking, and a car drives by, and
guys stick their heads out of the window,
and yell, or something...it scares me so bad!

Doesn't anyone know the definition of rude, anymore?
Maybe its just me, but...yeah...

Scary...

I forgot one thing, so I'll tell you now...
I had a really creepy dream last night, it really scared me...
I was some girl...and there was this guy with her...
I'm an only child, but in my dream, I had an older brother...
It kind of went like this:

"Ah! You make me so annoyed sometimes! Just leave me alone! I don't want to talk you anymore. I'm leaving!" he yelled.
I looked up at him, and silently backed away."Don't leave me," I whispered."You promised you'd never leave.."

All the sudden everything went black, and I woke up...
It was so weird, almost like a story being told, or us acting out a play...
Why do people have to yell at me in my dreams to?
Whats really creepy, is that I remember it so exactly...

Ugh...

Still grounded, and probably will be for about two weeks...
But that's okay, it will be summer, and I can do whatever I want when I'm not being dragged
off to some exotic place....

Random comment of the day:

I really love tangerines, they make my life...
There so small, and sweet, and nice...
They don't make you hallucinate, and they smell nice...

Papers are all bad...

Well, I wrote papers all yesterday...fun stuff...

Stephan, thanks for commenting, you and Sarah make me feel loved, haha

I still have 26 more papers to write in a period of eight days, so I guess I had better go get started...Ugh

New

Today is all new and all mine...

Things to accomplish today:
~Butter parents up, and get ungrounded
~Do ALL schoolwork
~write lots of papers...ugh

Haha, I doubt I'll get it all done, but still....

Tired...

I seriously havent been getting enough sleep...
One night I go to bed at tweleve, the next night/morning, at one...haha
I guess you would have to call that morning...

I feel bloated, I think I ate to much at dinner...
Ugh..its a bad feeling...haha

If I'm caught on the computer tonight, I'll be killed...
I got in major trouble, and now I'm not allowed on my phone, computer..
pretty much anything that allows me to talk to other people...
I'm not allowed outside even!

But it shouldn't last to long...
What did I do to deserve this punishment?
No idea...
I came home the other, and was told I was grounded, and to go to my room...
ugh...

Week...

My internet keeps leaving me, and then coming back...
It is starting to annoy me greatly...

I talked to a poor, sad, little emo kid today...gosh, his life is rough...
He was abused by his other, both phisically and mentally.
And she was arrested two weeks ago.
Now he lives with his dad, and I havent seen him since...
but still...creepy...

Tired...

Stayed up talking on the phone all night...even though technically I'm grounded off computer and phone....and basically anything that brings me joy, at the moment...

Luckily my parents are sleeping... haha oops

I was feeling really depressed, and then I went out today, and got to see all my friends....
Haha, it was fun...even though the guys were all making perverted gay jokes...
I can't complain, I was laughing to hard...they werent being that gross, just funny.
I shouldnt laugh...oh dear....

Nebraska...

Nebraska was interesting...
But I'm so tired of travelling...
If my parents trusted me, they would have left me home...apparently they don't...

Ever have those moments, when everyone seems against you?
You know you have friends, but where are they exactly?

I'm having one of those moments...

How can emo people take joy in suffering?
Its horrible....