You dont need to be drunk to be happy

Well...I havent posted in what seems a long time, but really its only been about a week...how scary...
Time is not passing soon enough...

Its Thanksgiving this Thursday, and I wish it was over.
Ugh...what is thanksgiving?
Well duh..its about Indians and white people..and the mayflower...
Personally I could care less...

What is Thanksgiving nowadays?
People getting togeather to eat and eat and eat...
Ugh...
This year, its going to be a party with some neighbors that have lived by us forever, and my aunt and grandfather...

Im going to be the only fifteen year old there...
I could hang out with the 'guys' who are in their twenties, and my neighbors sons...
They are in collage and work full time jobs...
They sit there and...eat...and play video games....ugh
Or i could hang out with the little kids, my neighbor girl and cousin, who are eight, and twelve...
Though its funny, cause the eight year old acts like shes twenty and the twelve year old acts like shes eight...sigh

Guess I'll just sit in my room...

Ooh!!!
But the good news is I got a solo, in the ballet production!
Im the only one in my age group with a solo, all the other soloists are older...

We are doing Beauty and the Beast,
all the solo parts are filled up with the older girls...
Im the footstool dog thingy...hahahaha
Ah well...its a small part, but none the less, its mine, and Im extremely proud of it..
Plus im also in all the chorus's dances...

Where is Superman when you need him?

The world is a horrible place.

You have to look at the world and dig and dig through all the nastiness until you get to the good.
I've been reading the newspaper, and its horrible depressing.

I found myself glancing at it, and being like, "Mhmm, someone was killed, someone saved animals, and someone found their 8 year old daughter lying dead and bloody in a ditch...thats nice."

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! No its not....
Some lady just got kidnapped, in a house not far from where the mangled little girl was found.
No one found that little girl until three years later or something. I think she was taken when she was five....anyway...

Why do I read it? Dont ask me...
Why cant i stop? I have no idea..but everyday it shows up on our driveway, and I waltz merrily over to pick it up and to read about who was killed, hurt, or arrested...

Lovely....

Trick or treat?

Ooh...Tomorrow is Halloween, and I honestly cant wait!
I love seeing the little kids dressed up in their cute costumes and the older kids in their scary costumes. I believe this is one holiday where, no matter what age, every ones creativity comes out. Even if they have fake blood dripping down their face, or real blood for that matter, from tripping off the curb, or being tripped...haha

People in my neighborhood take the 'trick' part of 'trick or treat' a bit to seriously...
Peoples house gets spray painted, or their cars get stolen. Smoke bombs, stink bombs...you name it, they have done it all before. We have a small stratch of woods near our house and last year some gang og older guys sat in there, and when the little kids ran through threr, they would grab them and pull them into the forest.

Haha, but then after halloween is when the neighbors all come together to scrub paint off of someone garage door, or clean rotten eggs off a car...isnt it lovely...

This is the first time in about five years i will be trick or treating around MY neighborhood....surprise surprise...
We are always invited to other peoples houses...

We are having one family over, and there son, who is a friend of mine, is trying to get me to invite this other guy over who likes me.
No offense but ever since the kid told me he liked me, and i told him i didnt feel the same way about him, he feels he can be rather open about it...sigh
Huge hugs, sitting next to me, saying he loves me over the phone....inviting me over all the time.(To which i have always had a reason not to be able to come)
He's gotten really really annoying...

Quite happy

Well...it took me two hours, but i rearranged my whole bedroom..again..
The book shelf was a pain...it almost fell on my three times, and i got stuck, cause i was scooting it back, and then i was between it and the wall, and realized i was stuck...haha
I looked at the florr where i had put all the stuff that goes on the bookshelf, and realized it was all junk..but im to lazy to get rid of any of it, and it looks good randemly standing on there..so its fine..

I dropped so many tacks, its a wonder i dont feel like a pin cushion yet...
I was also holding a handful of tacks, and i shut my hand a little to qucikly...ouch..
But it felt weirdly different..not good..not bad

(randem)
Fall is so pretty, i glanced out my window and the leaves are falling, whirling, prancing, dancing across the yard...My pear tree is turning orange and gold and red...yay
The apple, plum, and cherry trees are still a dark green.. :(
But those are my mums, my tree is pretty.. :)

Anyway..yes..um
I was listening to a cd i found in the car, and one of the songs starts with a wolf howling and barking. My cats head snapped up, and he got out of my bedroom so fast it was hilarious.

But anyway..im quite happy..

Ping Pong...Ding-a-ling...Pitter Patter down the street...

Well..im sick again..blah

But i spent most of my evening making cookies.. :)
Yum!
If there is one thing i can cook..its desserts...haha
Even if they do look a bit different, and..flat....haha
They are VERY good...

I have a ton of school tomorrow, 3 papers and math, grammer, and latin...ugh
I shouldnt have put off the papers...
Stupid Stupid Stupid Rain!!!

My dad made a fire in the fireplace...yay
It was nice and cozy.
Then he left and i tried to make another one, after that one died...
It was....smoky...and not that much of a sucess...
Lets just say..ash everywhere..and lots of smoke...
Oopsy...

I went to an exercise class with my mum and ripped something in my shoulder...
Ouch...
I could hardly move my arm...but i was in front, and i HAD to keep moving...
Utter pain...I just laughed and kept going...
I even skipped ballet, cause i was so dead...
Then, since i didnt go to ballet, mum made me help her clean the refrigerator..sigh

I think I may clean and reorganize my room again...
Ah! NO..i must do my schoolwork FIRST...sigh
Homeschooling is SO hard..ugh
Focus Focus Focus....
Blah...

Maybe i will go to the library again... :)

Ahh!
Tonight i sat on my bed, and threw myself backward, and went crashing down onto my cat...
Poor baby...so i pet him..and he started purring.. :)
I love that cat...i can squash him, but as long as im next to him, hes happy..
The other night i was sleeping, and he came up, and laid right next to my face, and he draped his paw around my head like a hug, and fell asleep..it was SO cute...

Oh dear..i should go make more cookies...goodnight!!

Find one song, one last refrain...one song to leave behind..

Sitting at the library, listening to Sweeney Todd, and looking out at the pond.
I'm warm and dry, and the rain is falling on the pond in soft rings.
The ducks and geese are floating along delicately...its really pretty.

It would be perfect if i didnt have to do school, and if i had eaten lunch before coming...

Thunder is rumbling, and i just saw the strangest thing...
There was a huge white dog standing in the back feild, but he was so large, i could see him perfectly.
He's gone now, maybe i was just seeing things, but it sort of worked with the picture.

I had the most horrible dream this morning about my dad, and i woke up so scared.
Then ten minutes later my dad showed up, and i was telling myself, "Calm face, no emotion."
HAHA...
It was soo scary..

I was sitting at the computer, and it was around two in the morning, and suddenly a car pulled up, and i freaked out.
I shut down the computer and ran to my room, and pretended to be doing school, and then the door rang and it turned out to be my dad, but i was still scared, and then i woke up..

I shouldnt be scared..but it was weird..
I didnt have any reason to be scared...

Whoop-di-do

Nothing really is happening...

I finally cleaned me room, cause it been a mess, while they put in our new windows...sigh
Everything was shoved against one wall...and now it is amazingly clean, and reorganized...yay

I shall post when i have more interesting news...

also the questions arises...WHERE IS CHAOS???
Im quite mad at him, cause he hasnt been on in ages...
Is he dead?